I'm alive. I don't get to check my e-mail everyday because I'm a little busy.
I just want you to know that I am the one telling myself to stay away from you. No one else. Whoever 'they' are, have had no influence on me or my choices in life.
I'm not trying to prove anything, I'm just trying to live my life.
Please get some help.
Now, I’m going to sit and stew to find just the right words to answer this one.
I decided to ask my younger daughter for her point of view and it went something like this.
When are you going to learn that you can’t control our lives?
But, we’ve barely seen each other for six years. Not even holidays and birthdays.
But, I haven’t been telling you what to do for six years.
You can’t treat Dad like this.
I haven’t seen him in six years. He has a restraining order on me. He’s all in the past. I don’t see him, I don’t talk to him, I don’t think about him. What for? He’s not my husband anymore! As a matter of fact, I can pack my bags and move anywhere in Canada and never, ever, see him, hear him or think about him again.
Where will you go?
Wherever I want to go! Since I can’t find a job here and I’ll probably have to sell my condo anyway. Oh, but I’m thinking of renting the spare bedroom since I have two full bathrooms I think I can charge enough money to keep the condo.
Who will you rent to?
Well, I won’t rent to anyone who isn’t recommended. Do you know anyone who wants to rent a room? Maybe you can ask around?
I’ll think about it.
Actually, I’ve been reorganizing and I came across some things I forgot I had, his grandmother's rosary, a few pieces of jewelry, and I want to give them back. I’ve already asked Ava what she thought I should do but she hasn’t replied. What do you think I should do? Can you tell me where to ship the stuff?
I don’t know. I’ll ask Dad.
So, I sat and stewed for a day ... or .... two ... and then ... I found my answer!
And so Ava,
~ Here's My Answer To You ~
Several months have passed and I threw the items in the garbage, just as my daughters asked me to. Having them in my possession was depressing me and, although they may have been worth something to my ex-sister-in-law and her children, they meant absolutely nothing to my daughters and I.