Mother’s Day

I spent this Mother’s Day alone, again. My younger daughter called to wish me Happy Mother’s Day last night but I haven’t heard from Ava. My younger daughter didn’t want to visit me today even though I offered to pick her up. Well, of course I can’t pick her up because I don’t know her address and I can’t go to the authorities because as far as they’re concerned it’s none of my business where either of my daughters are. When I ask my daughter “Why?” I get the usual answer, “It’s not about you, it’s about me.” I wonder who fed them that line to say to their mother?

Not seeing my daughters on special occasions has been going on now for seven years. It’s my ex-husband and his family’s way of making sure I understand I’m no one important. Speaking to lawyers so far has gotten me nowhere. I get the same reply every time, “Give it up!” They have no intention of fighting this for me because they don’t have to. Now that my daughters are both over eighteen I don’t see them at all. The legal profession made sure of it.

I remember when my daughters were in Grade 3 in elementary school and they were tested for giftedness and I was told in both cases that they were borderline gifted. Actually, they were both gifted but since neither parent had a University degree the teachers downgrade it to “Borderline Gifted”. Now that some time has passed and our destinies have gone to pot, I wonder what good is all this giftedness? I’m convinced that since the school system identifies these gifted children through testing, the school staff makes sure they lose their giftedness before they can cash in on it. My daughters were gifted once, not any more. These things are genetic so their mother must have also been gifted once, not any more. After all, for who THEY are, their children are the best suited for giftedness and why don’t they see just what they can do about this? As if they can, somehow, supernaturally, steal my children’s gifts and transfer these gifts to their children? Well, why stop at one lifetime? Why don’t they just take all our gifts and keep them for themselves for all eternity? When I stop to think about it, knowing how insane these higher learners are, once they’ve dealt with everyone who does not own a B.A., I’m sure they’ll turn on each other to continue to improve upon themselves, and, when it comes right down to it, I’m sure they’ll wonder if their children REALLY deserve these gifts and they’ll decide to just keep all this giftedness for themselves!

And so, yet another important day on the calendar has passed without a visit from my daughters and that’s another blow to my psyche and self esteem. Looks like their scheme is going as planned. One more nail in my coffin and it won’t be long before they bury me and find a new victim to practice their craft on.